Okay, okay.. I know its been a lifetime since my last post, and I wont waste half a post explaining why I have been a rubbish blogger or promise to be more consistent.. But instead I will just get on with it :) Sooo, for lent this year I decided to do something a little different.. and no, I'm not religious if you were wondering, its just that every lent whilst everyone is declaring to give up chocolate and cheese; I always have that guilty nagging feeling that I should be too. But as I already have very few vices, it would be hard to give something stereotypical like that up... so I had a little think outside the box. I wanted to do something worthwhile to more than just my waistline, and so I came up with local for lent; an idea to give up supermarket shopping and promise to shop locally for lent, supporting local businesses and our local community. Being a religious tweeter I put the idea out there on Twitter to see what people thought and straight away I had such positive r...
I had a realisation today. Maybe I learnt to let go of the bitterness, maybe I finally learnt to let go of the attachment to the pain I have experienced.. But today I thought about what I have been through and I felt gratitude. I realised this pain was my becoming... The pain was my purification, my awakening to myself and to my karmic duty here on Earth. I went through years and years of self-abuse, destruction and pain. I used to feel a victim of my illness, I used to feel angry about it.. "why me?' But I am no longer bitter about what happened to me, I realise now all of this was a blessing . This experience was such an essential part of my journey. If I had not experienced this, If I had not broken myself completely; I would never have learnt how to rebuild myself into the person I am today. This person is now here to serve and heal others, to teach others from what I have learnt. I now know happiness and peace; but I am only able to realise and appreciate that be...
I was talking recently with a good friend about mindfulness and useful tools for recovery and wanted to share some of the things I feel about the whole 're-wiring' of our brain we have to do when we're dealing with overcoming mental battles. It really is a matter of reminding our brain how to think again. Reminding it of which are positive and and which are negative thought patterns; and that then enables us to make better, more helpful choices in the thoughts we listen to and absorb and which we hush, which ultimately means we end up having more positive thoughts overall. Also, it's about treating ourselves or ' our mind ' in the same way we would treat somebody else.. We would never say; you don't deserve this, you can't handle it, you're a failure, you never do anything right, you're a bad person etc to someone else (without very good reason!) so why do we find it okay to do that to ourselves? We deserve the kindness we give other people ....
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