I was talking recently with a good friend about mindfulness and useful tools for recovery and wanted to share some of the things I feel about the whole 're-wiring' of our brain we have to do when we're dealing with overcoming mental battles. It really is a matter of reminding our brain how to think again. Reminding it of which are positive and and which are negative thought patterns; and that then enables us to make better, more helpful choices in the thoughts we listen to and absorb and which we hush, which ultimately means we end up having more positive thoughts overall. Also, it's about treating ourselves or ' our mind ' in the same way we would treat somebody else.. We would never say; you don't deserve this, you can't handle it, you're a failure, you never do anything right, you're a bad person etc to someone else (without very good reason!) so why do we find it okay to do that to ourselves? We deserve the kindness we give other people ....
Dear potential tinder date - No, your 'moment' with the title 'bored' will NOT make me want to come and take away your boredness, nor will it make me weak at the knees, EVEN if your moment also includes abs, tattoos and a beard. The only thing this will make me want to do is 'unmatch' you. My life has zero amount of boredom in it these days, on my own I am whole already... I am not looking for someone to fill a void or end my boredom or take away my unhappiness. All I would like is someone to be in love with. That is very different. I want realness and actual emotions, not a virtual relationship or meaningless sex. That is how I found myself on Tinder... With hope that perhaps a little bit of proactive behaviour could result in broadening my chances of meeting someone else who is also, not just looking for a one night stand or a trophy girlfriend. Instead I find myself sat here, swiping aimlessly and wondering to myself how on earth I found myself at this poi...
I had a realisation today. Maybe I learnt to let go of the bitterness, maybe I finally learnt to let go of the attachment to the pain I have experienced.. But today I thought about what I have been through and I felt gratitude. I realised this pain was my becoming... The pain was my purification, my awakening to myself and to my karmic duty here on Earth. I went through years and years of self-abuse, destruction and pain. I used to feel a victim of my illness, I used to feel angry about it.. "why me?' But I am no longer bitter about what happened to me, I realise now all of this was a blessing . This experience was such an essential part of my journey. If I had not experienced this, If I had not broken myself completely; I would never have learnt how to rebuild myself into the person I am today. This person is now here to serve and heal others, to teach others from what I have learnt. I now know happiness and peace; but I am only able to realise and appreciate that be...
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